Previously posted elsewhere... DREAM

dream. july 2008Share. Tuesday, April 28, 2009 at 5:07pm | Edit Note | Delete
here is a dream that i had yesterday when i dozed off on the couch with luca for a few minutes. make of it what you will, i'm still trying to figure it out.

My grandmother was having a dinner party at the house in Willow Grove. There were maybe ten people in attendance, some close friends, some acquaintances and some "new" old friends that i've recently come into contact with again. And i was late. Not fashionably late, really late. I found myself up in the tiny room that i had once occupied, already changed into my dress and fumbling with the straps of my heels. Then i quickly came down the stairs and into the dining room where i immediatley began to clear away everyone's dishes from the first course rather than sitting down and joining them(once a waitress, always a waitress i guess..). When the main course was finished everyone got up and moved out into the semi-darkness of the backyard. Out past the old patio swing that we used to play on as kids, situated next to the mint plants that i could smell in the air, past the stone wall that we used to "fish" off of with sticks and string fashioned into "rods", to the farthest point of the back yard just before the hill drops into a wooded area between houses. Here, towards the left corner of the yard was a well. As we all stood around it, my grandmother took my hand. I could actually feel the frailness of her tiny hand(they were so dainty!)and the softness of her thin skin(they were always so soft). She looked at me and said, "Have a look dearie. It's a good place to do some thinking, to clear your head and make some necessary decisions. We'll wait. We will all be up here when you're done." Suddenly, all around me, flew a cloud of cardinals. Bright red. Swirling and dipping. The beating of their wings fanning air across my face. One hovered in the air in front of my face and stared directly at me for a few moments before moving back into the swirl of birds. None of them touched me, just enveloped me in their cloud. Then, just as suddenly, they were gone. And i was alone in my grandmother's backyard.

it's a bit stream of consciousness, i know.